One Last Dream

I am awake.  I awoke at about 2:30 AM after another dream of my ex husband telling me he is leaving me, which I have relived in my dreams over and over since he left me after 27 years of marriage.  

Something about this dream was different.  He looked young and well.  Thin even as he was at twenty.  In my dream he had been gone a long time and I was angry when he finally came home.  I berated him for staying gone so long.  He told me he wanted out of our marriage.  After all, what good was he to me having no job?  I was suddenly distracted by a woman on television winning the lottery. Her husband had left her too and I called his attention to it as if it was relevant.  

Then, we talked and I told him I would miss him so much and asked didn't he love me anymore?  Where upon he replied, he would always love me and I saw in his eyes, it was true.  He took me warmly by the hand and smiled.  Then I remembered the Catholic Church had given us an annulment. It was true, but this happened 28 years ago.  I said, well, the Church had given us an annulment so I guess you are right to go, but I will miss you always and in truth, despite all the pain he caused me when we were married, I have missed the good man I knew in our earliest years together, for all these years since he left me.   

He is now 81 and in very serious condition in the hospital.  I am wondering if he has passed away this very night and he came to make peace and say goodbye.  If so, welfare and rest in peace.

I'll know in the morning.